I haven’t had great luck with my Etsy account. I made it at first to sell hand sewn hair things:
And then I got extremely lazy about sewing. The last thing I sewed was a skirt made out of sweatshirt fabric, and although I totally wear that thing around like it’s designer, I left the hem undone and attached the waistband with the messiest basting stitch I’ve ever done in my life. So, I didn’t use my Etsy account until I decided to try to sell artwork.
I haven’t had a lot of luck, like I said. Actually, no one has ever purchased anything of mine from Etsy, ever, and barely anyone has ever even looked at my page. There’s a lot of awesome stuff on that site, but even for people much better than me it seems hard to get noticed. I used to think no one was buying my stuff because it wasn’t good, but I’ve realized stuff doesn’t have to be the best to sell. The right person just has to see it. (I learned this the second my artwork actually started selling. My favorite things are not the things people buy.)
Anyhow, I barely have anything in my shop, but I listed the Frida Kahlo portrait this afternoon as both a digital and physical file. I didn’t know how to price the digital file, because it’s really high quality and at that point they can just print whatever. But I put it at $8.00. And then I realized that the copy that I’ve been splattering all over the internet, while it’s not as high quality, is still good enough to fit most people’s needs. On the other hand, I fixed a weird shadow.
This is my shop, if you’re interested.
On a similar topic, the thing where I draw something and people pay me is strange. I find myself getting this weird writer’s block- I guess artist’s block? That’s is anxiety related. I’ve already decided I’m useless and can’t hold a job, and coming to that conclusion pretty much made any work hard and stressful because I worry about how I will mess it up. I have a piece for my best friend’s aunt that I literally cannot finish. I get all panic attack-y when I look at it. I think the problem lies in the fact that she’s related to someone very important to me, and the fact that she’s actually paying me what the work is worth. And it’s really unfortunate, because I’m pretty much fulfilling my own prophecy here. It’s so weird that art was one of the only things I felt I had left, after I kind of crashed mental-health wise, but once I started making art my work, I started to lose that too.
But, I mean, that’s probably untrue because, other than the one drawing, I’ve finished everything I was supposed to do and probably been more productive (in a focused, non-manic way) than I’ve been in any other period of my life. I did drop the ball on some free or cheap stuff with friends, but where I really failed with that is not just coming straight out and saying things like “Oh, you plan to sell it? Then I can’t give it to you for $20 after all. You also need to buy the copyright from me.” I need to make sure when I’m doing things for friends I turn on my professional side. I’m getting better at that, too.
While I am being productive, probably thanks to adderall, I’m also having weird side effects that aren’t on the label. Acne, I know, is a side-effect many users say they have that the manufacture denies. I’m having serious breakouts mostly on one side of my face, and the only thing I can think may be causing it is the Adderall. I have never had large amounts of acne. I either clear skin had one or two pimples at a time from the time I started puberty. Hormonal changes could be a problem, but this doesn’t follow the pattern of hormonal acne. These are small, sometimes painful red bumps and for the most part all that is in them is pus. I don’t think it’s a rash, because they do really look like pimples and they come in one or two at a time, go away together, and then start up again in about a week.
Another problem I’m having that’s new is weird sinus issues. My sinuses have been acting up for months, and now I have post nasal drip, a swollen lymph node behind my left ear, which is almost completely blocked and has been for a week. Can this be related to the adderall? I dunno, probably not, I’m not a doctor. But it does feel really strange, having my body act in ways I’m not familiar with at all.
Anyway, how are y’all?